No merriment, no jokes, no laughter, no playful ways, nor any happy silliness. I had no life-long friends and learned how to face death or bereavement. "You can choose your friends but not your family"...but this thought didn't happen to be true for me.
Life is full of challenges, not for all but a few deformed who have not been allowed to bloom.
For some life is full of screams, throat getting narrow and swollen, almost strangled. Stifling hopelessness with a tempest building inside. Some enjoy good health. I resuscitate ceaselessly because I am a Warrior Princess being perennially optimistic.
God granted me the calmness to accept things that I cannot change, I dare to change the things I can and have the wisdom to know the difference.
I still dare to change the things I can,
I resuscitate ceaselessly,
I wage wars with verve
In a point of no return
Yes, a Warrior Princess I am.
Pain and hurt are a necessary part of life. I suffered so much but I still felt I had things to live for. I am somehow more alive than other people, and the world, fate or destiny, whatever it was, has some plans for me and my mother who's physical energy alone to be my caregiver and everything has kept me alive.
We were together shenanigans to trick Death to throw a noose when we reached a crossroads when something happened out of the blue to change the course of life's events.
After being partially blind, due to the awesome, rare brain tumors floating in the CSF, my heart didn't sink, I didn't feel dazed. Even if I was told that I have a few months to live.
LMD- similar to leptomeningeal hemangioblastomas
Precisely because people are different from others that they're able to create their independent selves ...I am me and no one can compare themselves with me. You'll never find the likes of me because I am unique.
Life is what you make it. Interpreting life can be done very easily than living intensely. To admire the brightly shining Sun agleam with power to nurture nature, the sparkling clear sky or a rainbow after the rumble of a storm fills me with ecstatic joy of the enchanting world.
Time passes regularly tick-tock, tick-tock - says the clock in the stillness...one more year is added to my life. Time is speeding up in everybody's life.
The mind is always vibrantly alive crammed with facts, dates, and information. The mind remembers everything, forgets nothing. But in our day-to-day lives, in our rabbit run we are not mindful of the fact, forget it, ignore it or think it's a long time away.
I have lived for the moment, guided my mind, only by impulse and motivation.
Death does stalk us all but you can confuse him for some time by a few methods.
By rekindling your passion, by doing at least one worthwhile thing. By urging your mind to be passionate about life and what you believe in and channel the energies and enthusiasms into things that we care
about and not crush yourselves to a boring existence.
My whole life stands before my eyes like a simmering picture and I can discern the faces who descended from heaven to escort me in my difficult times then they flap their wings like the tooth fairy and fly away.
When someone else, even distant relatives, our neighbors or landlords, are suffering, people seem to care little for the person.
"O' let her die, good riddance" is the standard of mentality that has dulled life and is the ever-moving drama of society which fashionably made our society rot. Well, people are outrageous, but it all seems to have more to do with mood, whim, and atmosphere than carefully thought-out arguments.
In human beings jealousy ranks distinctly as a weakness; a trade-mark of small minds; a property of all small minds, yet a property which even the smallest is ashamed of; and when accused of its possession will lyingly deny it and resent the accusation as an insult.
Only when you are coping with a somewhat death sentence. You shall try to live a self-indulgent life before realizing that this does not fulfill the meaning of existence.
Warmth, kindness, cheerful encouragement is the spirit of life.
If you sink into depression and listlessness. Modern antidepressants, which can benefit people in temporary grief in reaction to life events, or suffering from internal, chronic depression are there.
They may make you look cheerful but watching Tv, cooking, going to different places does it make you internally happy?
Pretty strong things in life, depressions, withered hopes but still in poverty I am lucky to have my own pluck. Don't cackle, my mind dances with fun.
I am not immoderately slothful yet I vex very easily.
I got a flash of understanding that both optimism and desperation can control the exploding pain.
You can get happiness, the day you learn to face life, control your mind...then only you find delight and ecstasy even in stabbing pain.
When the tongue suffers from jabbing pain and there is discomfort in swallowing pills, coax and cajole your mind and think up some ways to swallow them albeit with difficulty because no one is going to ask about your problems. They are busy with their own business even those distant relatives don't give a damn about you.
Mind and brain are two different things and it's my first-hand experience.
I am perpetually stimulated. My mind never hesitates. I have opened the doors and windows of my mind and let every detail in and keep it to spruce up from the foulness. Rather than moving heavily and clumsily with a weary and defeatist attitude, my mind feels a joyous excitement with positive power, never being frustrated. Fear or flatter, lightning or thunder, the mind remains calm.
Mother's kindness, love acts as a restorative.
Life with its many dark sides, in all its beauty, grandeur, and magnificence is too short.
It's unusual how lightly people speak about the future as if they can hold it in their hands with the power to push it further off or bring it nearer.
God is modest but he's not punishious.
I thank God every day and pray earnestly to keep me from worse health and improve my condition and thank him for making me what I am.
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