Sunday, September 26, 2021

Race of life



 Warrior smiles when sad


Relationships have all been bad.


Few friends a Warrior had


Laughs and cries


Mingled naturally with  maternal sayings wise

Knowledge is not enough --- we must apply

Geniuses are but silly fools

Let eternity wash over him

Life is too short to fool around with them

If you correct them

They ensnare by flattery or talk very artful


Generosity and altruism is nowhere, because all are born selfish hurtful

Willing is not enough ----we must do

Although I might be laughing loud and hardy, deep inside I'm blue

As Mum took charge, said 

After father's death


" crying isn't an option there is no better life waiting for you so face this one and enjoy as life is granted once don't let it go awaste"


Her words put more life in me than death

Telling me in one sweet easy breath

Writing relieves the mind

In a word 

Life is not triumph but struggle

Determination, strength and power


Life isn't for a delicious winning

Destroying every life on the way. 

For success are Hungry

Such is the queer nature of the human race.


Crowd cheered louder and louder

The race began with fit challenger

Success makes the competitor proud and important


A frail partially blind lady became the challenger

The fit become the only finisher

Power and strength felt delight

But the crowd stood silent

Thinking power has no moral sentiment


Power wondered why aren't they a part of my success achieved effortlessly


Race began holding the hand of the disabled challenger

Walking slowly

Crowd cheered, and applauded 

Power exclaimed "Dear God!"

Understanding the crowd cheer for every winner

Power thought in life what is the measurement

Who am I against

Soon people stop cheering

As your end is nearing


Looking back asking

Who was running next to power

The weaker

But didn't help them cross together

Best race run is to finish together

So run this race called life

It's not important to win

It's important how you run the race







Thursday, September 16, 2021

Stomach ache in the night

 Upsetting your stomach ache. 

Cruel pain swirl and ache

---With all its rarities that ache

Thus in the night hours of ache;

Made me get Mum awake

To find moral support

It was just last night

Didn't hearken Mums advice


Stomach remembered that poor meal of protein


Was the tough standard scene

  The most courageous and strong stomach is rightfully suspicious

Knowing it's impossible to look for food so delicious!

Would be too strong for the stomach 

Even the most brutalized people,

 When tend to bring war into discredit 

Stomach thought: how does one treat such an improbable disease?

Stomach remembered no impoverished meal but  hasn't eaten at night 

Just starting off in the night

Unarmed road of flight

Until. the rising light

Isn't it a delight


Fasting is a big mistake. 

Particularly on an empty stomach discomfort sneaks in 

Absurdly and mystically cause pain

Slaking the thirst as to fill the stomach and lubricate conversation

Isolated ones

Only seek 

Mum

Happy hum, sad hum

Mum's comfortable rejuvenating massage

 Mended the wounded stomach but would the tummy ever heal?


Monday, September 13, 2021

Itching and scratching diseases!

 


Metastatic Net cancer links the metastatic malignancy

With compulsive eating of eggs 

I suddenly got rashes on my shiny legs


Itching and scratching diseases get full attention

My cancer is beyond comprehension

On anti- itching drug shall I focus my attention

Repeatedly scratching is hideous to behold

Mind adopted  with ventues manifold.


Hence public and government decided to be devoted to itching and scratching 

When itching attacks Earth seems to be collapsing


What was more startling was the announcement 

The  so-called woman suffered a heart attack during surgery For metastatic cancer.

Genes hold the answer

Quacks and their deception

Concealed rare diseases

Practitioners won tremendous reputation 

Treating coughs and colds and sneezes!

Emotional complication

Ruined the voice of a rare disease patient against administration

Absurdity and mysticism on distinction in equality couldn't bring in revolution


Inoperable pancreas cancer--How ironic that the diagnosis was mistaken. 

Time to awaken,

‘Right to life’ include the right to lead a healthy life 

A healthy body is the very foundation of all human activities.

To enjoy all faculties of the human body in their prime conditions.

Our community is infested by impurities

Use knowledge and experience to recognize the negative activities

The Fundamental right to live with human dignity

The bare necessities of life such as adequate nutrition, clothing and shelter over the head

 Facilities for reading writing




To few medical men camouflaged 

Reconstructive surgery can be done on necrosis or itching and scratching not camouflaged


There is an itch at the back of the skull

Itching to believe, and something in every believer, itching to doubt.

Saturday, September 11, 2021

"Don't make me angry! The angrier the stronger I get but I suffer"


 Wisdom must never be given.

Who unto youth was given,

 It has to be acquired

Amongst all needs and ambitions, knowledge is desired


Life can also be painful.

  Wishing to experience all the excitement of life. 

A dim light you see at the fringe

The road I have to travel is hard and darkness awakens my will

Do you think I cringe? 

But then, we all experience sorrow and frustration. 

Without complaint determined to fight cancer with weird strength from Mum's inspiration.

There are two ways to live life: as a Warrior who enjoys existence not only breathes 

Or who stays in the world and experiences all it has to offer doused in fear, nervousness weakness

Being immune to fear with hopes chasing my dreams

I am here to follow my dreams pursue my ambitious dreams,

You might say they are impossible dreams

Surprise and delight and dazzle spiritual bliss


Attain balance, material pleasure, and spiritual wisdom in harmony.


Listen, Storm and Wind!


The Wind and Tempest are strong!


For days and, weeks it play’d us freaks –

As my sudden nimbus of angry energy doesn't make me meek

This sea in anger, and that dismal shore

The infuriated monster into which I turn makes me red

With ten heads

Gives me Hulk's strength not his green

My life is not Healthy, tranquil, sweet lively

Pleasingly agreeably well

Are the things so unbelievable

Emotional trigger that turns the mild-mannered bibliophile and author into a nigh-indestructible beast fuelled by serotonin 

Friday, September 10, 2021

"Live now or never!''

 


Mum is full of generosity, nobility and caringness

Tends to prioritise my happiness

Life is for the living not the already dead

 My ailment I'd seen it happens time and again


I was born to be solitary

Of course my life is not so merry

Yet going beyond ordinary limits; 

Surpassing the unnecessary 


Eaten alive by loneliness

Lord has given me onliness


Cruel is my life

Life and Death once shall  cease their strife

Under the surgeon's knife


Life is a bird with broken wings but hope pushes it to fly

Misfortune cannot last forever, it  has to die


In the web of thoughts if there's darkness and lie

You die extinguishing the flame in the middle of your life

It's a stubborn planet with incessant strife


If we survive the virus, we will not survive forever

"Live now or never!''


Obsession that grow like madness inside 

Your deal of hatred and pride

You can't cheat the Lord run and hide


Displeaseth the lord of obstacles

Your Nefarious influence


Thou mourned less fiercely, and angered the Lord


During my cancer as the befoul flailing me 

And the world like a destroying angel to save her man from Mister death and  his house

Have you ever seen a jail house

Where they try to turn a man into a mouse


How could the say it in one sweet, easy breath

Say the cheater, seducer, slut

" You die right now" as if death is a donut

But to you that would be cruelty

The conscious opportunist brutality

 And to me it surely would not spell  death


I can master my emotions and forge ahead with skills and potentials

A mother who made me brave with a belief in myself.


Thursday, September 9, 2021

Fighting neuroendocrine cancer takes guts- pancreatic cancer vs Neuroendocrine cancer





1. They are totally different cancers despite an anatomical relationship.  Although they can share a similar presentation, they can have different signs, different treatments, and vastly different prognostic outcomes. Anyone looking for useful information on either needs to be very careful on interpretation, they could end up with very bad advice and in some situations, become more concerned than they should be. (particularly with the prognostics).


2.Both Pancreatic Cancer and Neuroendocrine Cancer are diseases that need maximum publicity, both types of cancer have their own unique situations, thus why the awareness messages can be so vastly different. It’s really important, therefore, that publicity surrounding famous patients be attributed to the correct cancer type in order that the advocate organisations and supporters can gain maximum benefit to forward their causes. Unfortunately, thanks to doctors and media, this very often doesn’t work out in favour of Neuroendocrine Cancer due to the Human Anatomy of Neuroendocrine Cancer (this problem goes beyond the pancreas).


The pancreas is an organ that sits behind the stomach. It's shaped a bit like a fish with a wide head, a tapering body, and a narrow, pointed tail. In adults it's about 6 inches (15 centimeters) long but less than 2 inches (5 centimeters) wide.


The head of the pancreas is on the right side of the abdomen (belly), behind where the stomach meets the duodenum (the first part of the small intestine).


The body of the pancreas is behind the stomach.


The tail of the pancreas is on the left side of the abdomen next to the spleen.


Pancreatic neuroendocrine tumors, known as PNET, are also called islet cell tumors. They are a type of neuroendocrine cancer that starts in the pancreas. There are different kinds of PNET. Some PNET make and release different hormones. They also vary in size and how fast they grow.


PNET are different from other types of pancreatic cancer, because they form from neuroendocrine cells in your pancreas. Neuroendocrine cells are part of your body’s normal “control system.” When your brain and nervous system send messages, neuroendocrine cells release hormones and other chemical messengers to control bodily functions, like digestion, reproduction, airflow to the lungs, and responses to stress or injury.   


There are many subtypes of PNET; most are slow growing, but some may be aggressive.


The most common type of pancreatic cancer, adenocarcinoma of the pancreas, starts when exocrine cells in the pancreas start to grow out of control. Most of the pancreas is made up of exocrine cells which form the exocrine glands and ducts. The exocrine glands make pancreatic enzymes that are released into the intestines to help you digest foods (especially fats). The enzymes are released into tiny tubes called ducts which eventually empty into the pancreatic duct. The pancreatic duct merges with the common bile duct (the duct that carries bile from the liver), and empties into the duodenum (the first part of the small intestine) at the ampulla of Vater.


Endocrine cells make up a smaller percentage of the cells in the pancreas. These cells make important hormones like insulin and glucagon (which help control blood sugar levels), and release them directly into the blood. Pancreatic neuroendocrine tumors start in the endocrine cells. See Pancreatic Neuroendocrine Tumor for more about this type.

A neuroendocrine tumor (NET) begins in the specialized cells of the body’s neuroendocrine system. These cells have traits of both hormone-producing endocrine cells and nerve cells. They are found throughout the body’s organs and help control many of the body’s functions. Hormones are chemical substances that are carried through the bloodstream to have a specific effect on the activity of other organs or cells in the body. Most NETs take years to develop and grow slowly. However, some NETs can be fast-growing. See the Grades section to learn more.


NETs can begin in any part of the body, including:


Gastrointestinal (GI) tract. NETs develop most commonly in the GI tract, specifically in the large intestine (20%), small intestine (19%), and appendix (4%). The GI tract plays a central role in digesting foods and liquid and in processing waste. GI tract NETs used to be called carcinoid tumors. Learn more about NET of the GI tract.


Lung. The lung is the second most common location of NETs. About 30% of NETs occur in the bronchial system, which carries air to the lungs. Lung NETs also used to be called carcinoid tumors. Learn more about NET of the lung.


Pancreas. Approximately 7% of NETs can develop in the pancreas, a pear-shaped gland located in the abdomen between the stomach and the spine. Pancreas NETs used to be called islet cell tumors. Learn more about NET of the pancreas.


Insulinomas


These tumors release insulin, a hormone that lowers sugar levels in your blood. They may cause the following symptoms:


  • Low blood sugar


  • Nervousness


  • Excess sweating


  • Blurred vision


  • Confusion


Glucagonomas


These tumors release glucagon, a hormone that raises sugar levels in your blood. They may cause the following symptoms:


  • Diabetes (elevated blood sugar)


  • Rash


  • Weight loss


Gastrinomas


These tumors release gastrin, a hormone that signals your stomach to produce digestive acids and enzymes. They may cause the following symptoms:


  • Ulcers


  • Abdominal pain


  • Diarrhea


  • Heartburn


  • VIPomas


These tumors release vasoactive intestinal peptide, a substance that stimulates the release of water and electrolytes in your intestines. They may cause the following symptoms:


  • Watery diarrhea


Abdominal pain and cramping


Dehydration


Somatostatinomas


These tumors release somatostatin, a hormone that stops the release of other hormones, including gastrin, insulin, and glucagon. They may cause the following symptoms:


  • Diabetes (elevated blood sugar)


  • Diarrhea


  • Weight loss


  • Nonfunctional neuroendocrine tumors


Neuroendocrine tumors that do not release hormones are called "nonfunctional." These tumors in your pancreas may cause the following symptoms:


  • Abdominal pain and cramping


  • Weight loss


NETs can also begin in other organs. In about 15% of cases, a primary site cannot be found. Sometimes, NETs may develop in or on the adrenal glands. These rare types of NETs are called pheochromocytoma and paraganglioma. Other types of tumors that begin in hormone-producing cells are also described in their own sections on Cancer.Net, including thyroid cancer, adrenal gland tumors, and pituitary gland tumors.


A tumor begins when the DNA of healthy cells is damaged, causing the cells to change and grow out of control, forming a mass. A tumor can be cancerous or benign. A cancerous tumor is malignant, meaning it can grow and spread to other parts of the body if it is not found early and treated. A benign tumor means the tumor can grow but will not spread. A benign tumor usually can be removed without it causing much harm.


It is difficult to tell if pheochromocytoma and paraganglioma are benign or malignant, even after surgically removing the tumor and examining it under a microscope. The only sure way to know if a pheochromocytoma or paraganglioma is malignant is if it has spread, called metastasis, or if it comes back, called a recurrence.


Pheochromocytomas and paragangliomas are considered a subset of a group of tumors called neuroendocrine tumors (NETs). A NET begins in the specialized cells of the body’s neuroendocrine system. These cells have traits of both hormone-producing endocrine cells and nerve cells. They are found throughout the body’s organs and help control many of the body’s functions. Hormones are chemical substances that are carried through the bloodstream to have a specific effect on the activity of other organs or cells in the body. All NETs have the potential to become metastatic. Most NETs take years to develop and grow slowly. However, some NETs can be fast-growing. 


A pheochromocytoma is a rare NET of the adrenal glands. The body has 2 of these small, yellowish glands. One is on top of each kidney. Adrenal glands have 2 main parts that function separately: the outer adrenal cortex and the inner adrenal medulla. Each part produces a different set of hormones.


A pheochromocytoma begins in the chromaffin cells of the adrenal medulla. The cells release hormones called catecholamines during times of stress. Adrenaline and noradrenaline, which increase blood pressure and heart rate, are 2 of those catecholamines. A pheochromocytoma can cause uncontrolled surges of extra adrenaline and noradrenaline into the blood. Even though an estimated 90% of pheochromocytomas remain localized to the area they began, these hormone surges can still lead to life-threatening health problems, such as a stroke, heart attack, hemorrhage, or sudden death.


Most people develop a pheochromocytoma in 1 adrenal gland. Some people develop a tumor in both glands. There can also be multiple tumors in a gland. Pheochromocytomas usually grow slowly.


A pheochromocytoma is called a primary adrenal gland tumor because it starts inside an adrenal gland.


A paraganglioma is a rare NET that develops from the same type of cells that pheochromocytomas do. However, paragangliomas form outside the adrenal glands. These tumors are also called extra-adrenal paragangliomas. The majority of paragangliomas form in the abdomen. They can also form in other parts of the body, including near the carotid artery, along nerve pathways in the head and neck, and in the chest, heart, abdomen, pelvis, and bladder. Paragangliomas are less common than pheochromocytomas. An estimated 60% remain localized and 40% may spread, though that cannot be determined at the time of diagnosis or from the pathology evaluation  Paragangliomas are typically slow growing.



Maintain a healthy lifestyle

  • Your doctor may suggest some things you can do to help make living with a NET as comfortable as possible.


  • Light exercise: Mild activity, such as walking, is best and can help reduce stress


  • Get a good night's sleep: Get plenty of sleep and take naps when you can


  • Avoid stress: Make time for yourself to do things you enjoy and keep a positive attitude


 

Continue your daily routine

Your family members and caregivers will be there for you throughout this journey. Don't be afraid to ask them for help. They can help you with daily activities and also help you cope with your feelings. They understand that the most important thing is for them to be there for you.


Your loved ones can help:


  • Provide emotional support


  • Take notes and ask questions at your doctor appointments


  • Keep track of your appointments and paperwork



Let the people in your life know how you feel and what you are going through. Asking them to be more involved can help you continue your regular routines.

Monday, September 6, 2021

Shoes


 As you get ill and had to have special food, 

Daily weather somber mood

Or a mood of merriment

Hopeful survival is an achievement

Within disagreements, bereavements 

There is positive movement


The inner part moodily, sullenly thoughtful 

Sarcastic, doubtful 

In the dark gloom those stinking humanity

Who cares about their vanity?

With dignity like a person coolly

The fierce and rude brings forth, a winning streak

Life is a vast and big cliff inspiring me to climb to the peak


Climbing alone, enjoy it.

I have my old miserable handed down muddy pair of boots

It's all about mistrust, narcissism, and disputes

The favorite shoes wore out, clothes wore out,

Had to stay in a house with windows broken; 

Wall is a disgrace;

The man and the woman bring brutality to the place


It seemed as if no sooner there was a little money in the money box but the huge evil spirit with a big appetite came and ate it up.

Hey, " Listen, boy, you're just your spouse's pup"


Magic and the Magician

From the Cosmos 

Makes me realize everything is not a chaos

With a disgraceful old pair of shoes

’his great dirty feet, without wipin’ ’is shoes.’


When you take a stroll in heaven's high paradise

Learn how to walk through doors because not having dirty feet, that's nice

You probably don’t have one, so pack my shoes

 And I’ll take you with me and wonderfully fit you into one of mine.

I bring you my passionate rhyme.

And you never realized the time.

 Time eateth all things

A marionette on strings

Life is reserved for foolish things

Yet I find my spirit sings

Life is a fairy story

Steeped in light and color of the glory

Domed vast roof of the universe

I hear the Creator's verse


In my tattered shoes

Endless thoughts, endless dreams, endless blues

‘I don’t mind admitting I’m down-hearted'

Blue and down-hearted

Back where all started …

"When I was just a little girl

I asked my mother, what will I be"

Futures not us to see said she

Quick-witted, talkative showing how you feel about people 

In the way that your witty communication with them. 

Being sympathetic, encouraging quick-witted, talkative, 

Showing how you feel about people

 In the way that you communicate with them, being sympathetic while encouraging

Cheerfully understanding

Content eating on good times

 Enlightening to ignoring bad periods

Live my slice of my life

A world ended trudging across life

Wearing my shoes

So much you'd deduce

Want me to tie the laces?