Sunday, July 11, 2021

Hope's just a word, when nothing's assured hope knocks at the door

 


My memories are what I have left,

and a lesson I will not forget.


When life was sheer willpower hanging by two or three threads

A lost  breadwinner, now who will bring a small bit of bread,

Faithful bruvver of mine.

Who had sworn, so I will be fine,

Affectionately said 


"There were many generous people who could do the duty, perform the responsibility 

he had sworn ardent, answering commitment to his pater.

I can't care for you because I have a wife 

I will look after you later

After your death in next life."


Bruvver found the easiest solution: leave all responsibility to any outsider

"I will do my duty after your death

When leaving sweet memories to ease away pain you step into the afterlife"

He's turned so mystifying

Subhuman, so annoying

For your special mind

Takes life for granted

Takes God for granite

he is the only one who is stronger than death.

He is the one who supplies you with every single breath.







Life after death 


Spirit or soul 


Is there in every culture.


The great cycle of life and death


Seem as vague and hazy as a dream.




Darkness would wrap itself around me, 


filling me with a veritable ecstasy of emptiness




If when I die I will live again, 


And some thinking, feeling,


 Remembering part of me will continue.



Despite the ancient and worldwide


 Cultural traditions that cultural beliefs


They mystify and bring relief



Asserting an afterlife, immortality 


In ancient Mesopotamia, Egyptians, Hebrew, Greek, Romans, Old testament, The Gita, Chinese, Tantric, Anglo-Saxon



It feels like a formation of beliefs, wishful thinking,


If it was really true no matter what


And I can trust my gut


The door is slammed shut



I could satisfy my deep interests and ambitions


Only if I had proof the authenticity of the traditions



But if it's an endless dreamless sleep


A shadow so deep;


My passion would remain a forlorn hope


Fulfillment of my wishes has no scope



This perspective has given me


 A little extra motivation to stay alive!


Thrive and survive



In our vulnerability, 


Looking Death in the eye 


Don't make me breathe a sigh


Being grateful for everyday 


The brief but magnificent opportunity


Life grants


Life is but a momentary glimpse of the wonder of this astonishing universe


Not a dream or spiritual fantasy


I feel choking inside

Something deep down inside of him died

It seems to me like a myth

Not the bruver I grew up with 


Forgot how mater catered for his fascination, desire, fixation

She is a kinder creation

 Thinking about her offspring

She struggled against the wishes of Pater

Living in a crater

Hoping an arm would support for the better.

Hoped her grateful child, learn

In the battle-struggle 

To him, she can turn 



"You've obviously lost your mind if you don't remember your duty" 


She was thoughtful but careful not to speak out,

She was steady enough not to freak out


 The whole fabric of the life gets torn

With the rare illness of her firstborn


After a while, glanced heavenward

How could he forget his given word


She felt he was leaving them on chance

In the darkest hour of circumstance

All because of enjoyment and romance 



We don't have to be filthy rich to help the needy

Feed and clothe the needy

Not being greedy 


A gifted daughter, 

Made from Pancha bhoota or five elements earth, fire, air, and space, water

Is truly ill-starred,

Luck less fight hard

 Left overwhelmed with ailments

Her go power is knowledge, writing, and entrapment


 The ennui of her loneliness

Being penniless, 

And hungry, without a roof over her head after her father perished...

Broken life but she didn't moan 

Hellish  diseases,

They mock her groan

But bore the sword that could pierce anyone

 But people were never comfortable about her feats 

Try to bring her down

But she's always ready for excitement and fun  




The complexity of their existence, 

Daughter weakened by continual resistance

The trials of maladies 

Without remedies

But hard to get treatment 

Which required banknotes so frequent

Forced mother-daughter to struggle to live.

They became someone who knows how to live


The will to live is an unstoppable thing.

Her ailing child said "Forever, to thee shall I cling"

Mater consoled " Things will be all right by and by"

 Most people live only when they are about to die.


 The ennui of her aloneness, 

 People were never comfortable with her accomplishments and tried to bring her down.

Light and dark.

 Hope and despair. 

Laughter and sadness. 

Trust and loneliness...that's life.



In every act of betrayal, 

Every crime inflicted

 You can smell the money.


 ‘Money’ and ‘Power’ are the root causes in every act of felony, every crime, every treachery committed since time immemorial. 

Money, gold, holds allure because it gives power, a lavish lifestyle and many are ready to harm a life for its powerful charisma.

 Money tempts most people to wrongdoing. 

Crime is as old as humanity.

 Thus, it is since ancient times that brothers are slaughtering brothers for the power of the throne and the wealth it brings along. 

Slaughtering, poisoning, strangling, asphyxiating, backstabbing, but achieving money and power and destroying every life on the way. 

Such is the queer nature of the human race.

Breathing is a race, 

With longing and restlessness everywhere

Bearing grief every day 

All my life in a certain way 


To see if you feel alive

Or just existing muddled


 A son instead of being dutiful towards his parents desires the end of the ailing, helpless parents and shoves them out of the way, 

A raving egomaniac parent drunk with the influence of wealth, affluence, power withholds what the ailing sibling truly deserves, thus strangling life out bit by bit



When the thinking machine got tumors 


Floating in the fluid stuff they plotted murder


The laughing girl became a cry baby


Which weighed on Mum's soul heavy




She has fought cancers, transplants, and bears the scars


She has a weird zeal to shoot up to Mars


She asked the Gods showing them honor due


Prayed for her welfare too



They said " Divine interference hast saved thy child"


She's bound to suffer that is foreordained


Thou with thy child shall make history


By making unusual victory 


Live forever in memory"




"As tears fly out of her eyes


They travel through the skies


Reach me on the summit


Her pain passes swift


Her sobs flying through the black hole reach on the peak


Holding hands hug her, kiss her on the forehead


Soon she will be filled with glee 


As I shall drink her pain and suffering and her misery will be dead


As her valiant fight and determination are unique."



Mater I dreamt Lord said there is a rare and unique delight as you fight


Wished mother-daughter  luck


Poured into both  minds more pluck


Woman who works in a slaughterhouse

Who is somebody's wedded spouse,--

Who had poisoned her life with power, laziness, indulgence, food, outings, ego, fear, anger, 

His mind was stirred

With filthy words


Threatened to drop dead the very moment

Whereon the stars in secret influence comment;

Life is one magical moment

Where dreams are woven

Keeping eyes open

Exploring each moment

Feeling the thrill of the moment


Idle world desires their glory,

Not getting entangled in a piteous story!

To live is written in your story.

O' dem is lef' to tell de story;


In life, each heart holds some sad story -

 It's sadder still to feel all hearts turn away


Stay to watch it in de hour of decay?

In the mountains and woods

Enjoying their day, have their day;

In the shining twilight grey

Abandon you and love decay, 

Whining and weirdo bruvver with whom I grew up


The life they knew was just not enough

Not understanding once born you gotta die



 And an evil eye,

Wanted a horrible death I die.

Nearly threw up

And after it, she just blew up


I saw someone hitting and calling me bitch

Being from a family of wizards and witches,

The pothead

Wanted me to drop dead

Like a real Warrior Princess

My life will be a success

 Won't die a trivial death

As the woman speaketh


I have nothing to lose,


 I can't try to live again a perfect life


 Relaxed and healthy without any strife


Under trees bearing chocolates


Mountains of books but being less inflate


I say I don't want to lose this life


 With my Mum and the instances of delight


Often intersected by twilight.


Mater thought I pray night and day 

"I'll do something for the ailing daughter 

and as a mother; it's my duty

 and responsibility.

 She is dependent on me."


I am growing old and frail 

 I am bold nevertheless enough to endure 

 Produce a new self.

 What if my hair is turning grey?

 I have nobly faced a horrid war,

 I have the power still

Of moving mountains with my will

I am going to take away his license to kill


"No one has ever become poor by giving," said little wise Anne Frank. 

We are never too poor or too small to give a piece of ourselves.

Oh being  so very frank--


We want a house, a car, then an even better dwelling place or vehicle so that people stare at it and praise our achievement.

 But that's not really a gain or success because humans have a natural desire to have more good things than he needs.

 Holding back a small kindness or thinking oneself superior will not lead us to glory. 

You can also be self-indulgent, thinking that you want to be superior and turn yourself into a snooty and megalomaniac.

 In our life struggle, if you wish to help someone, never Never think twice because overthinking is the biggest problem. 

Think positively. 

If you wish to do good work, do not trouble to think what the result will be but don't gloat or try to look like an egomaniac, dimwit 

Instead trying to get a positive outlook towards life 

Quick-witted using the presence of mind to get out of any situation is a better option. 

A simple act of care can brighten a life because hope and help are synonymous


In order for them to survive and prosper, developing a capacity for responsibility and commitment is crucial. Without that, the relationship provides only temporary satisfaction.


It's not an onerous duty concerning the tragedy which happened in the past in his absence.

 A duty done is always quietly done for the family 

Those that act badly and live wrong have to suffer.



The wind is singing under the starry sky, 

Under the light of a million stars shows the many scars, few to be feeled, few to be felt.



We must encourage everyone in their struggle and not betray caring in the real sense,

 fortify spirits, 

make sure the passion burns like a fire;

 ensure there are no tear-soaked pillows or sad dreams.


"My daughter is my happiness and my pride". 

She is always sparkling with glee

 Who chose to be a warrior princess,

 In her honest strife,

 winning life.


She lives with self-respect,

 aware that days are bitter and sweet,

 there are sun and shine, we both live for victory




Life is a vast and big cliff 


Climbing alone, enjoy it. 


In a shifty moment, it's your grit


Once you slip and slide 


The wits inside guide 


Don't let you fall off 


You huff and puff


Get up tough


Doesn't mean "the end" of your story?

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