The eternal state of the human mind-a theory

The world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think. ~ Horace Walpole

Why not advance science in its most difficult and vital aspect—the knowledge of the brain? ~ Dracula

The lifetime blues made me face anything and the nerves caused disorders that became the target of treatment and debate between doctors. Oh, no! I don't have any psychological illness but physiological disorders. 

A deeper import lurks in the legend told my infant years than lies upon that truth we live to learn.

 

 One of the intellectual strengths of humans is the ability to imagine impossible things. When you have the fullest flower of intelligence, personality, and pluck.

Virginia Woolf, Marilyn Monroe, Sylvia Plath especially Robin Williams are historical figures in the field of psychology because of their mental disturbance.

I too have the horrible ailment 'Neurasthenia' minus any emotional disturbance excluding my well-known anger.

I am never hostile, I am bold to stand against any sort of injustice or opinion or deed which is not morally good. There's no 'yelling’ and ‘melancholy’ madness.

My anger is like the basic human emotions, as elemental as happiness, sadness, anxiety, or disgust. These emotions are related to my basic survival and were honed over the course of the history of my life. Anger is related to the “fight, flight, or freeze” response of the sympathetic nervous system; it prepares humans to fight. But fighting doesn't necessarily mean throwing punches; it might propel communities to combat injustice trying to change laws and thoughts or enforcing new behavioral norms. Thus this is my tool for survival and I get angry against anything done wrong. 

Prolonged-release of the stress hormones that accompany anger can cause physical suffering. Sometimes emotional states, particularly stress and anxiety, can also increase my anger. My anger had never been jealous anger, in my instability, vulnerability, and continuity of pain a hollow feeling of the sorrow, of grudge, would not lead my battle to a successful end. 

The mind is bogged down by lingering illness, it goes swoon to a tee but those who want to flee are held by a shackle to God's project "Earth".

I have nothing to lose, I can't try to live again a perfect life, relaxed and healthy, under trees bearing chocolates, mountains of books but being less imaginary I say I don't want to lose this life with my Mum and the instances of delights divided by twilight.

The midbrain dopamine system comprises a group of dopamine-releasing neurons and their axonal projections in the brain. Although the dopamine system contains only a small set of neurons, this little population exerts a strong influence over a large area of the brain through dense and wide axonal dendrite. Dopamine neurons organize a variety of neural functions, including voluntary movement, action selection, motivation, reward-related learning, and memory. Serotonin helps regulate mood and is often called the body's natural "feel-good" chemical.

Serotonin contributes to normal bowel function and reduces appetite as I eat to help you know when I'm full. The neurotransmitter also plays a protective role in the gut. But my Mum is the antithesis trying to stuff food inside me even when I am full.

I don't know if this"feel-good" hormone is really controlling my sleep or bone density because my legs are getting weaker and I knew this might happen someday and hence after my surgeries, even liver transplant I never opted for a wheelchair. The kind helpers used to offer me one but I denied it.

After surviving a life-threatening surgery when the doctor said "Everything is in God's hands" I always felt rewarding and felt good, woohoo! "How many times does this make?"

Feels like Tom Cruise's rock-climbing. Life is a vast and big cliff and climbs alone enjoying it. Once you slip at a precarious moment, slide and almost fall off it doesn't mean "the end" of your story. It's like Watson writing about Sherlock Holmes and Moriarty falling in the waterfalls and Holmes sneaking into the room and adding a question mark. 

You live because of your intellect, wit, talent, cleverness at the moment of need. Holmes survived because of Mycroft's portable oxygen cylinder and Cruise did because he slips and almost falls but grabs on it with one hand hanging on then swings around to the spacing outward in a scary position with a smile on his face not having spiderman's powers he successfully climbs up. This is rewarding and feels good and alive.

Wrist-cutting arriviste doesn't know various religions of the world have traditionally condemned suicide because, as they believe, human life fundamentally belongs to God.

The Italian poet Dante Aligheri, in “The Inferno,” reasoned from traditional Catholic beliefs and placed those who had committed the sin of suicide on the seventh level of hell, where they exist in the form of trees that painfully bleed when cut or snipped.

In Hinduism, suicide is referred to by the Sanskrit word “atmahatya,” literally meaning “soul-murder.” “Soul-murder” is said to produce a string of karmic reactions that prevent the soul from obtaining liberation. According to the Hindu philosophy of birth and rebirth, if not reincarnated, souls linger on the earth, and at times, trouble the living.

Buddhism also prohibits suicide, or aiding and supporting the act, because such self-harm causes more suffering rather than relieving it, suicide violates a fundamental Buddhist moral precept: to refrain from taking life.

 Schizophrenia is a neuropsychiatric disorder that is characterized by hallucinations, delusions, loss of initiative, and general cognitive dysfunction. Its human-specific character and its genetic origin, coupled with its similar prevalence across societies varying in climate, level of urbanization, culture, industrialization etc., led to the early hypothesis that human brain evolution may have played a role in vulnerability to the disorder. They have a sort of disconnectivity problem-- disruptions of these 'organs of connection'.

Bipolar disorder is a common and chronic psychiatric disorder characterized by mood disturbances with recurrent episodes of mania, hypomania, and depression interspersed by euthymic periods with none or subsyndromal mood symptoms. Studies, been associated with less grey matter volume in prefrontal brain areas.

Findings indicate that neuroanatomical traits potentially impacted by bipolar disorder are significantly associated with multiple neurobehavioural domains. Findings suggest in the case of depressive disorder impaired reward-related learning signals in the ventral tegmental area during remission in patients with depression. This merits further investigation to identify impaired reward-related learning as an endophenotype for recurrent depression. Moreover, the inverse association between reinforcement learning and anhedonia(inability to feel pleasure) in patients implies an additional disturbing influence of anhedonia on reward-related learning or vice versa, suggesting that the level of anhedonia should be considered in behavioral treatments.

All such brain-behavior problems need optimism and are treatable.

My will power and mental concentration when my physical body, the container of my spirit which needs repairing so often is the most dangerous disease state ever seen on the planet, and my recuperative power and the enjoyment of my mother's love when I make her furious are beyond imagination.

Fog hovering

Opaque, phantasmal

Mistral howling

Mind shut like a clam

Keep out the dust

Live in glory

Wracked fade in forgetfulness

Live heroically

 

 

Gray vapor around

Grayness of tint

The sky made of ash

Spleenful murky gray clouds

Inky black firmament

Impertinent comment

Wise and profound 

 

Grayness wrapping wings around

Hollow minds their indulgence

Insensate people

Where all is calm,

Calm is calm, just silence,

Hiemal comments

Walking on a tightrope plunging the fog 

Makes it a thrilling dream.